Mary Ann

1951 - 2009


I Am Not There

Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn's rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there, I did not die.

365 monday

"leaning into it"

  1. listen...
  2. new beginnings
  3. leaping forward
  4. close your eyes and hang on 
  5. GO for it!

365 sunday


"almost 18"

we gathered the families for easter dinner over at my cousin's house.  it was wonderful getting together, sharing food and sharing stories and sharing laughter.

this beautiful girl "sonia" will be 18 soon.  it blows my mind that she has grown up SO fast.  such a confident, funny and joyful young woman.  I love young girls who "get it".  it is so not about the clothes you wear or the make up.  real beauty shines from within.  

and the wee ones who were SO entertaining:

christopher - the youngest

anthony - big brother

anthony's idea of hide and seek was to follow me around with a blanket covering his head and say "zia, find me!"  SO cute!

mom was a rock star!  she was visiting with everyone and started doing her old clean up the place routine that we all remember.  she was pouring drinks in the air "a la tom cruise in cocktail" and balancing cheesecake on  a knife.  oh yes, "mamma mia" as she always says had a lot of fun and laughed a lot too.  

happy monday!

365 saturday

aaron came for a visit today.
I love watching him explore.
he is full of wonder and delight.
beautiful curious eyes and wonderful giggles.
and a smile that will melt your heart.

365 "good" friday

"bad" santa

365 thursday


presenting "the blue chair"

one morning on our way to the hospital for mom's rehab I saw this blue chair sticking out of the snowbank.  "dad, stop!" I said.  "look!"  he said "I am not going to stop and pick up that blue chair!  I can make you a new one."  I said "dad I want that one and if it is still there on the way home we are picking it up!"  and as you can see he picked it up.  it only had three legs.  he wasn't happy about that, but I knew it was a great thing.

it was a great thing because it was something for him to do and keep his mind occupied instead of worrying about mom.  he has looked very tired lately and I am worried about him.  he is giving 100% and going all out to make sure mom has everything she needs.  we should all be so lucky to have such an amazing husband.  they will celebrate 49 years together in a couple of weeks and it is wonderful seeing them still so in love with each other.

and so the blue chair.  it was ready today for me to take home.  I told dad "look how wonderful it turned out!"  "aren't you happy you did it for me?"  he smiled that beautiful smile of his.  "yes" he said and then he proceeded as always to tell me all the steps it took to bring the chair back to life.  I love those conversations.

I now have an amazing treasure that may have ended up in the dump.  I truly believe that chair was there for a reason.  and I am thankful for it being there.

what treasures do you have that may have otherwise ended up tossed aside?